Fear of most of us!
I often prayed for that in past times, today itself, met my one of a very good friend who has just lost her lifeline, her soul mate who took his own life. Red face, red swollen eyes, she could Barely see me. Neither She has eaten a single piece of food nor drunk a drop of water. The first thing I did was hugging her a real tight. As soon as I hugged, the tears she had hold out, ran through her red cheeks and the words she whispered were ' Bring him back'. Unlike God, nobody has such powers I guess. The incident had hurt her so hard that she could no longer be able to gather her extinct species of love. She started cursing loudly and I only could hold her hands and watch her blasphemous face.
The thought running into my mind was what if I would be facing any such situations in my life like this? Even a thought of losing loved ones shrinks me in fear. May be that is why I every time I ask God to keep my loved ones safe and healthy!
Those crucial moments she ever had in her lang syne, she was recalling, blaming herself for his death, I could not even utter a word since I was putting myself into her position. It's quite easy to empathise someone but it's way too difficult to put oneself in the situation and feel what one has lost.
I realized that asking for a death is the easiest thing you could ask for. But had the thought of hurting my loved ones ever crossed my mind? Was the matter so censure that no option I could see beyond the death? If I can not bear losing my loved ones, how can I get myself killed for such vapid reasons? Joking and playing with love ones about you being killed or hitting akin line 'only another person could understand one's value after death' is stupidity. Because if the person doesn't value the next person, he would not have been with him/her for too long. This is matter of understanding. Murdering own self is never the option you can find in life. I wonder that how can a person muster the guts of killing own self!
-Hinal Modi.
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