Game by life!

I was trying to divert my mind that day. I was trying to sleep somehow. And I ended up being awake whole night. I felt it was karma. It was getting back at me which i had done with someone else. I related everything bad that happened to me with karma, i.e. something which i had done to someone. I was feeling lost somewhere. I was thinking very deeply about something, what was bothering me alot.

Back in school and tuitions, I was notorious for having atrocious nature. Making people feel low and small, however, which in fact I had never done. I was never this evil from inside. People criticized me for all my achievements. And that's what made me cruel from the outside. I always showed myself very confident and ingenuous. But deep inside I always felt guilty of pretending what I was not. I knew that people would not like to see the other side of me. Until the worst hits them up, they don't wanna see kindness of anyone else.

One day, my scarred heart melted for someone's broken heart. But I could not handle the celerity of emotions and I ended up deepening the wound of his already broken heart. Never had I ever thought of feeling the same in my entire life. But as far as I believed in Karma, one day I was left with deep wounds which reminded me of his feelings. I started feeling the karma is doing it's sorcery on me. The belief of never feeling negative in my life faded somewhere in the celerity. I felt everything I thought I would never feel in my entire life. I was stuck between my soul and the physical body. One day, I chose to be real. I started my new journey with my real face on. But then I realised that people are not habituated with seeing the good side of other people. Perhaps one need not be perfect for being wonderful. Being practical is more important than being kind and good. It is just that one needs to take care of not being accused for somebody's unfortunate experience. Whatever one does to other, sooner or later, in this only life, will definitely happen with him/her. It has been happening with me. And still, whenever bad happens with me, it always strikes my mind as a reflection of my own karma.

When I was younger, I used to play basketball. I often got hurt in the play either by mistake or because of lack of sportsmanship in the game. Back then I was taught to take revenge  only in play and to forget the same in the game. Life is like a basketball game. Sometimes you play offensive, sometimes you need to be defensive.

Sometimes, life gives you a timeout to think about what you can do next to make the everything worth. And then it's up to you if you are able to take the opportunity and convert the shoot into a basket. Life gives us numerous opportunities, it's always up to us if we can constitute profit or loss.

- Hinal Modi.